It’s so depressing… every guy that I thought was gay turned out to actually be straight! It’s so weird… maybe it’s just that the male population at my school is just a little more on the feminine side. Grrr, maybe it’s also bad that I’m just assuming that some guys are guy based on how they dress, and walk in a slight side to side motion, and stand their center over one side of their body than the other.
music and things
Open X3
Something’s wrong with my gaydar
Gay friends like you…
Today someone told me something, and for the strangest reason, it made me so sad. I don’t get why I was so taken back by this statement. All he said was, “I have gay friends like you, so I know when you’re hiding something.” He wasn’t condescending at all. He was semi-joking around and semi-probing for answers about this girl he liked. But nevertheless, I had never talked to him about liking guys before. I never even did anything or said anything that was considered gay. Or maybe I didn’t do any of that intentionally. I guess I’m one of the “obvious”? I don’t know, but yeaaaa. I thought that phase where I was uncomfortable with myself was over. I really did think that I’m fully happy with being gay. It makes me special :) It’s not like I try to flaunt anything, but I don’t want to hide anything either. Just this year, I’ve come out to everyone, even my parents… well, everyone except my relatives (simply because my parents forbade me to), but I’m sure they had figured it out on their own if they went through my Facebook. I guess it just came out all of a sudden, and I was caught off guard.
I feel like I’ve lost all motivation for school.
hehh, it’s almost Thanksgiving, and I want my break to come sooner! It kinda sucks how I only have 2 days off. I wish my school wasn’t based on a quarter system. I feel like I barely have time for anything; I’m always pushed from one midterm to another, and then scurrying to put together a paper, and then comes finals… then REPEAT. Most of the time, recently, I feel like this isn’t my dream school, even though I had convinced myself that it was. Hopefully, I can stay sane for the next 3 years. CHYAAAAAA…
I haven’t feel so relieved in such a long time. No more humanities papers ever again… YES! Done with ochem and psyc midterms. So now all I have to worry about is finals, but that’s not until a couple of weeks. I have some time to destress and just relax (finally).
